Magalie

That’s fine.

I’m getting tired of people (myself included) hiding how they really feel. I want to expose myself as much as humanly possible.

Who is watching you through tinted windows laughing at your funny shoes?

As we grow up we’re told “Honesty is the best policy” up to that point of our lives we had already been lied to 90% of the time by the same people who fed us that exact line.

Completely fictitious statistic.

But in all honesty it doesn’t seem that far fetched. Our parents teach us to be honest, but what did they lie to us about at that age? Where we came from, that bad guys don’t exist, nothing is waiting for us in the dark. Don’t even get me started on Santa.

I want to ease myself into exposition.

I’m getting tired of having to hide how I really feel. I like exposing myself. Not being afraid of doing something, wearing something, showing something etc. that I feel or like or am inspired by just because someone somewhere could maybe-possibly be offended by it. That’s bullshit.

I refuse to edit myself because someone might not like it.

Something I am involved with already has to be censored because of the audience. Honestly, this sickens me. It’s a work of art. Would you put a moderately sized black box over Michelangelo statue of David’s junk because it’s “indecent” No, you wouldn’t, because it isn’t indecent, it’s art. This is the real world, and in the real world people say grown-up words, these “grown-up” words don’t hurt anyone, they merely flutter in the air and fizzle away. Whether or not you make a big deal about it is up to you, but it is you making a big deal out of it that allows that “grown-up” word to linger. Besides, if you are so concentrated on one word..

which is FUCK by the way

you are letting FUCK consume your mind and take away from the rest of the work. Which means you are more concerned about FUCK than you are about your child’s hard work going into play. So congratulations, you have officially put FUCK before your child.

Nice.

I digress. I’m sick of censoring myself for the sake of others. Of course I’m not going to fly off the handle. The world needs moderation to run smoothly, otherwise we, as humans, would be running rampant with our indulgences. I’m simply saying if I want to say something, I am not going to keep it inside, if I want to show off something I’m going to show it off.

I’m not going to hide myself anymore.

My inspiration for not hiding myself anymore.

Found on Fuck You Very Much.

You know something matters to you when you are willing to risk whatever for it.

What are you willing to risk for the things you believe in?

“I like pigs. Dogs look up to us. Cats look down on us. Pigs treat us as equals.”

~ Winston Churchill

I’m taking a break from the day-to-day thing

I’m not exactly sure how I’ve been feeling lately. Stressed would be a good word but it doesn’t fully explain the whirlwind of emotions going on in my head. I have an overwhelming feeling that something bad is going to happen, but I’m not exactly sure what bad is going to happen.

It’s kind of freaking me out

Being sick does not help my emotions very well. I’ve been feeling extremely isolated. I feel like I should be better by now, it has been two weeks (almost three) with antibiotics but it seems like there is no solution.

I will be forever sickly.

Music has been a huge help in me feeling better, emotionally and physically. I guess that’s what I’ll stick with in cheering me up until someone comes around to ask me how I really am.

I’m almost heart breakingly bored. I wish there was some sort of super hero for this…

Day Two: To your crush

Dear Crush,

      You are possibly the most infuriating person I know. You stress me out, you make me angry, and you are the most difficult person in the world. But for some reason that is the exact reason I am so drawn to you. You don’t try to make things easy for me because I’m sure in some way you know I don’t like it when things are easy. There isn’t much to say to you. You’re a great friend, and a wonderful person to talk to. Things cant work out though, shit gets weird. But the way we are is nice, and I like it. I wouldn’t change the way we are for a second. I’m sure you know who you are, and if you are who you are you’re probably not even reading this. So I’m going to stop now.

Boredom superhero. I found him, And named him Phred. The F on his shirt is ironic.. he likes it that way.

Day one: To your best friend

This one is hard, considering there are so many people in my life that have changed me dramatically, and so many people I would consider my best friend, so I will make this general.

P.S. I’m horrible at remembering, that is why I completely forgot about this letter thing.

Dear Best Friend,

      Best friend, I don’t remember a time when I didn’t need you, you have changed me so much and I will always remember you for that. Remember that time we did that thing? Yeah, that was such a funny/sad/emotional/wonderful thing. All of those nights we spent spilling our hearts out, bearing our souls to one another in a successful attempt to feel closer to one another. It will be hard to forget all of those things we have done together, the crazy car games, the inside jokes, the funny voices, the late-night dance parties in my room. These things didn’t just create a stronger relationship between us, they created a stronger me. One that doesn’t care about what people think, and one that doesn’t worry about the little things. Best Friend you mean the world to me (every single one of you from every single point of my life) and I hope you realize this. I love you Best Friend.

I feel cheap for using prompts for my writing but honestly with my lack of time with schooling activities, and my increase in having to write things for school…

Thanks self you’re AWESOME

I have been feeling creatively blocked having to use up all of my energy thinking of video features and articles for the paper BUT I remember Miss Alicia Leary

http://aliciaellen.tumblr.com/

did this a few weeks ago and I thought it was cute and it would most definitely help me with my outrageous writers block so why not right? Right.

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

Day 2 — Your Crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 — Your sibling(s) (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

The challenge? If I actually get through all 30 days!

Oh by the way…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dzr32OqGlOA

Recently everything I own that is technological has been failing me miserably.

I being of quick mind have thought of a simple solution to my woes. I have decided to become a member of the Georgia-Amish community. Now of course I am completely unaware if such a community exists (this would be so much easier/possible if I still lived in Pennsylvania) but I REFUSE to let such minimal obstacles get in my way.I am going to view this experience like a… reverse Rumshpringa. For those of you who do not know what in the world I am talking about refer to the link below.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rumspringa

                                       Hooray, you’re educated!

                                                   I digress…

Obviously in today’s society it is going to be virtually (get it) impossible for me to become fully Amish. Considering my impulsive teenage mind just formulated this ingenious plot to give the proverbial finger to the world of technology there are multiple obstacles preventing me from having an easy reverse-Rumshpringa besides the non-existence of a Georgia-Amish community.*** My list of heardles goes as follows:

• My current wardrobe does not fit the ever-so-modest styles that of the “modern” Amish 17-year-old.
• I lack both the machinery and skill to fabricate a new wardrobe to fit said “modern” modern Amish styles.
• I do not have a horse to take me to/from school.
• I only own mechanical pencils and the internet is not telling me weather or not that’s okay.
• Even if I did have a horse, he and I probably would not get along.
• I’m in video brodcast and I’d doubt Wagner would let me slack off because I decided I hate technology.
• I’m not very good at keeping up with things I am at first completely passionate about.

So as you can see, the odds are stacked against me.

But I shall prevail!

I’ve decided to do this reverse-Rumshpringa on my own terms because I doubt a bearded man with hand-made suspenders will appear out of no where and hurt me old-fashioned style. It has come down to this,  I’m minimizing my phone usage computer usage will be minimized even farther, and as for TV I banish the abbreviation from my vocabulary. So there people. I have said it, and so it shall be. I’m holding strong to this… It IS going to happen… and if not, may the previously stated bearded-handmade-suspender-man beat me with his handmade belt.

I would appreciate it if you didn’t run me over on the way to school tomorrow. Thanks.

***I found one! Okay so, yes, I broke my rule by looking up an Amish community in Georgia on the internet, but they shouldn’t have a website to begin with… shouldn’t you focus on them being cheaters, not me?

http://home.earthlink.net/~white_and_gold/Mennonite.htm